Dear Zig

We miss you so very much. I can't bear to be at home without you right now. I'm waiting for you to push the bathroom door open with your nose. Peeing alone is suddenly a terrible experience.

We took a morning walk without you today and we met the little dogs who hated you so much. They had nothing to bark and freak out about today. Your other enemy from down the street just walked by and now he won't have anyone to growl at either.

Sometimes I have to go outside to breath, when I realize I can't find you in your usual sleeping spots inside the house. But then you're not outside either. And when I come back in you're not at the door to greet me.

I know you had a happy life and we have so many good memories. It's just hard to think of the good when I can't find you and I want to pet you.

We went to the farm yesterday for the first time in 11.5 years without you. We packed up your bed and said Hi to Pepper for you. Your waggy butt was missed.

Love,
Mom